Beautiful past

The past of our lives carries our present life. But the thoughts on present always has a strong will to return back to past and make past a beautiful one. But often I forget the present I am living now is going to be a past soon. Worrying and regretting about past became my irresistible hobby which comes along with me. I am not sure when will l be released by this. But is past really beautiful then present becoming past will it be beautiful in future. But in this present I feel it's too overwhelming most of the time I feel lonely I feel annoyed for no reason. Sometimes I just want to escape from the reality. But it's hard if you are born pain and suffering becomes inevitable like happiness and pleasure. But isn't it a privilege to think about purpose, past and future. While people are uncertain about the present in every corner of the country. I am grateful I have a roof over me, food in the table and a place for myself. Sometimes you are alone in this life. But it's you who crossed all these years of your life it's your intuition that gives a ray of hope which lives in the  corner. Whatever it may be these thoughts are endless and it never stops and becomes a part of your life. I enjoy my day to the fullest but after a moment I get existential questions about me. May be I am dumbstruck to follow the path of wisdom. Whatever it is I don't want to carry the baggage of guilty and regret with me. Whatever happened I can't change the past. I can't control the past or erase it better I should learn to live with it.

It's okay I have all my life to learn it.

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